so i miss you. its been 36 hours now, and while i am doing ok - no complete breakdowns in the middle of the supermarket or anything, i do feel quite sad. i think maybe because this time it really has to be over, and that is quite a big hole to get your head around.
i feel i want to kick something very hard.
on the one hand, you know, breaking up is quite exciting - and dont get me wrong, i am not being hartless boy about this who is merrily kissing six years of my life away with a wave and a cup of tea, on to the next style. but by the same measure when you have been in a relationship for quite SO long, and you are still so young, well, you know you can look a little excited about being able to more than just window shop again.
but, on the other hand, YOU are very annoying. why can't you just be A BIT MORE OF A GROWN UP AND ACTUALLY APPRECIATE WHAT WE HAVE rather than throw it all away? hmmm.
sorry. even though it sounds agro anyway, i didn't mean for thaT TO be in caps. the thing is cos i only have one arm en ce moment, re-typing anything is just not happening.
anyway stinker. i hope you're ok. i'm, i dont know, thinking/worrying/pondering about you.
love me x